Pick up the Knife

Life is sometimes a spiral cage with a light ray

What you do, invariably comes your way,

You left something behind, you moved on

Once there were many, today none around

Power mongers are in the pic, don’t try to crop

If it ain’t the bus you want to travel in, change it at the next stop

Know what’s worth fighting for; know what’s worth even talking

Forget what you did in the past, forget all the walking

If this is what you were here for, you made a wrong choice

You are growing old, still not growing wise

Cut throat is the mantra, so pick up the knife

If you cant do that, leave the stage, and enjoy the life.

Identity Crisis!

I am hiding my identity
Till the time I stand again
Till the time I stand to gain
Till the time darkness remain
I am hiding my identity

I am still there, but not visible
May talk to you someday, but not in real
My link to everybody just got feeble
Coz i'm hiding my identity

I am waiting to create it,
Not running like a foolish rabbit,
And when it happens everybody will savor it,
But till that time i'm hiding my identity

You might be willing,
As things aint revealing,
My journey looks thrilling,
But until the destination is reached,
I'm hiding my identity

Don't count on me, and dont follow,
Dont enter into my darkness, it can swallow,
My soul lies there but still my body hollow,
And till the time I reach my strength,
I'm hiding my identity.

I'm working on it, making a grove,
I've come a long way, but still a point to prove,
Its not belle dancing, its a chess move,
And untill its check and mate,
I'm hiding my identity.

I'm hiding my identity, but face remains there,
I may look skeptical, but not a speck of fear,
If you can't locate me, try calling my number,
Yet you dont hear me,
Coz I'm hiding my identity...

Destiny Demystified

    
In few days I will be leaving this place for indefinite period of time. Of all the things I will leave here, mostly all of them have come to my way as my requirement, very few of them I have met by chance and only 1 of them I met by destiny.

It goes 2 years back.

In the joining batch of 70 odd people from different colleges in Reliance I met with many people. I liked some of them, I laughed on some, I got curious about some and got inspired too by some. But there were also few people I had started hating the moment I saw them. And of those people, was there a guy, lets name him “X” for the moment, whose demeanor marked him down as a detestable guy immediately. The way he was approaching to things, the way he was laughing and making fun of things, in toto his overall concept was not getting down through my throat.

But I laughed and ignored him for the moment.

Of those 70 people, some 45 were then filtered to be sent to the site and rests were to be placed in the office. I casually glanced at the group of those 45 people which included me as well as “X”. I was amused.

We 45 people were sent to Dahanu a place near Mumbai for a 7 days training and meanwhile a second filtering was done. According to the second filtering those 45 people were again divided into 4-5 groups to be sent to their respectively decided sites.

I was in a group of 12 people. I took a glance at the group members and surprisingly found “X” there too. Not very happy this time.

We reached our site, lets say A. We were provided a 2BHK flat there which I shared with two other people whom I have met in the journey-to-the-site-A itself.

Surprisingly it was decided at the site-A that the group shall again be divided and sent to a training program at two different sites, say B & C. I don’t remember how the selection was done for groups here but shockingly I was again sharing the group with “X”, having my other flat mates in second group. I was a bit disappointed, though I just let it go.

We stayed at the training site-B for some 21 days and came back to the original site-A.

Now here it was again decided that we are to be sent permanently to other sites let’s say B, C & D, and everybody was required to fill in his or her preferences for those sites. I filled B-Rosa, a place in UP as my first preference, as I was familiar with that place, everybody else filled their preferences as well.

Then came a final list stating the name of 4 people moving to Rosa. I skimmed through the list. I was sharing the list with “X” yet again. I was irritated.

We somehow completed the journey to Rosa. An office boy came to pick us up and lead us to our staying place. At that place we were allotted two rooms for 4 guys on twin sharing basis. Of 4 of us, two paired up in a room and the remaining two guys were me and “X”. shit. It was limit. I was totally hit.

But I had no choice.

We both moved our strollies to that one room. Without speaking a single word and without a dispute he kept his luggage on the bed near AC and I kept my luggage on the bed near wardrobes.

It was that first day and it’s this last day. He has been the biggest reason I could survive at this remote place having no acquaintance whatsoever.

Leave aside all my friends till the age, he has that important place in my life which nobody can ever take. I have a kinda confidence over him that he will always stand beside me, come what may.

I would love to believe that somehow we were destined to be friends.

I think this is how destiny works. And this is how it gets demystified.

This space of blog dedicated to “X”, my first ever roommate, Siddharth.

Who am "I"?

I am,

A hope-handling son, searching for their happiness, every second.

A proving grandson, craving to see the feeling of being proud in their eyes, growing.

A motivating sibling, committed to do anything it takes, unconditionally.

A thirsty soul, wandering for the soul mate, aimlessly.

A social animal, fed up of being sociable, annoyingly.

An everlasting friend, living every emotion of life with them and ready to stand at the call of the moment, faithfully.

A trusted enemy, promising to give them a reason to hate, continually.

A zealous worker, experiencing wear-and-tear with every passing second, yet learning simultaneously.

A day dreamer, dreaming to go beyond the skies, with change in the ideas of dream, frequently.

A crawling spirit, trying to keep up with all the roles, unstoppingly.

A crazy freak, flying with the horses of imagination and when they stop, momentarily, I scribble such stuff, carelessly.

I realize it, suddenly; that the situation is very serious, alarmingly, coz I am running in various directions, randomly, and the only thing I want is to get free from all these regulating boundations, finally. Getting out of all these, needs a miracle, magically. I was a loner and that is how I like it to be, eventually.

The gist of taking all the thoughts, entirely, is

I am a two legged creature, begging for direction, wanting to be lead, aiming for stars, feeling like dead, this post may be good but the story behind is sad. That’s true, amazingly!

Signing Off !!

Kab hogi seher, dewaaron dar, behad viraan hai..!!
Kab manzil mile, kadmon tale, aankhein hairaan hai..!!

Uljhee… saanse, chup hai…raahe, koi raasta dikhaa…!!

Khuda ke liye..!!

Khuda ke liye..!!

This was the song that randomly started in the white tavera by which I was going to the office one sunny morning.

Flashback 2.0:

I was sitting on a bench of two people having two on my either side. Tensed. Room was crowded by the people who were directly related to the event and the people who were somehow related to it. A person having a sleek and organized appearance entered into the room with a paper in his hand and two people following him. After giving a two minute monologue he started reading out the names of people from that paper, Nitin….., abhishek……. , saurabh……, Piyush Jain…whack!!! Those two sounds hit my ear as the greatest relief. All my sensations went numb for few seconds. I could not hear anything else at that moment. Yes I was selected in the campus interview by Reliance Power. I recollected all my senses and then others who also got selected started wishing each other for next hour or so. I called home and a few friends informing about it. It was a huge moment for me and everybody from my clan congratulated me for that. Calls, msgs, wishes it all went on for atleast a week.

Flashback 1.0:

One year has passed into the company and I have visited 4 states and 5 locations where this company has its dealings. I have learnt a great deal about my specialization and some other tactics of handling people, situations, and so-called-corporate-ethics. I have become such a regular customer of Indian railways, thanks to the location of my site, that I am thinking to get a permanent berth quota into the railways. Sometimes I get to think that this company has given me so many things – A name with a designation, few buildings to claim having constructed by me, a package to flaunt, an answer to the patent dialogue of parents that ”How will you survive outside with your tantrums and addiction for homely comfort ”, a confidence to face the life on your own, and of course some money too. I too delivered my best to the company and time really flew very fast with these experiences.

Present 0.0:

It was 5:00 PM, I returned from the site to the site office by the same white Tavera. Opened my cabin, started my desktop computer, opened a new document in Microsoft word and typed a few lines. And then few lines more. And then some concluding lines which says..

“ It was a great honor and privilege to be associated with such an esteemed organization and the experience gained here will be helpful throughout my professional career. I am very thankful to all my colleagues and seniors for their co-operation and guidance during the tenure of my services to the organization.

I request you to please accept my resignation letter.”

Yes even I could not believe that I had typed my resignation letter. Went to the documentation room and submitted with no other thing in mind than to just move on. As they say “You cannot discover new oceans, until you have the courage to lose sight of the shore” .

I don’t know what next life brings, what I will be doing, how I will be doing but as far as this moment is concerned, it is Piyush signing off from Reliance. Thanks all!!

Aal izz well..!!

Yet another new morning. Thinking of an excuse not to go to the office but somehow left with no other option than to get up, curse the job and get ready to go for it. Even if you don’t do a single motion at the office but when you'll return you feel like you have moved a whole mountain in that single day.


After returning to the room I work like a machine to the set routine of having dinner, talking to some who-matters-much people and then go to bed. But there is a unique thing which I do before sleeping almost everyday. I talk to my roomy Siddharth about any random topic sometimes funny, sometimes serious and sometimes serious-made-funny and we plunge ourselves into a thunderous burst of coarse guffaw and with that light heart we hit back to our beds.

Yesterday when we were approaching our slumber zone we had a discussion. Here is how it went-

Siddharth entered the room a lil late so i asked him what happened. He said he was talking to one of his childhood cronies coz he was very upset. I asked whats the problem? He said with a snickery look “apni age me logo ko 2 hi problems ho sakti hai” and I could comfortably guess the jerks!!

1) Career/Job
2) Girlfriend


And then we as usual started dissecting the topic discussing the irony with above two things!

1)Career/Job -

The one who is not having a job will think – “Saala is recession ke time me kaisa bhi job mil jaaye, bhale hi dus hazaar ka ho, bas ek baar mil jaaye”

The one having a job of less pay if will talk to a guy having a job of more pay – “Tu to saala sahi kama raha hai, humko to ulta ghar se bulane ki naubat aa rahi hai”

The one having a job of good pay while talking to his friends will say – “Main soch raha hu saala ye job chhod du, maza nahi aa raha hai”



2) Girlfriend –

If we don’t have a girlfriend, we always groan about it. If we have a girlfriend, we always groan about it.

If a person not having a girlfriend talks to a friend who’s having a girlfriend, He says – “Teri to life set hai yaar, humko to sala 1 ladki nahi milti”

If a person not having a girlfriend talks to a friend who is also not having a girlfriend, he says – “Meko lagta hai sala apan dono aese hi reh jaayenge, kuch nahi ho sakta apna”

If a person having a girlfriend talks to a person not having a girlfriend, he will say "Tu sahi bacha hua hai beta, yahan hamari haalat dekh, dinbhar watt lagi rehti hai"

With these thoughts we laughed boisterously as if competing against one another for making more noise and went into our beds thinking in whatever situation we are but still the best thing is aal is well!

Randomycin!!

Sope this is my first entry to the blogging world.

Before starting, i thought of various topics to write on but couldnt come to a single topic so i came up with some random things about me. here it goes..

I Lack discipline. I don’t like deadlines. I cant work under deadlines. I don’t like postponing things but I postpone almost everything to the last minute. Sometimes even the ‘last minute’ gets postponed. I cant getup early. I don’t like sleeping early. I like spending time with myself. I behave weirdly sometimes. I watch almost all the cricket matches coming on tv. I spend a lot of time on internet looking in forums, socializing, surfing some good sites. I am goal oriented. Its been three years now I’m trying to achieve my goal. I like wearing sweaters. I am not photogenic. I am not emotional. I love having good cell phones.

My elder sister calls me ‘babu’ though that’s not my nickname.I have a very very broad smile. I play volleyball too. Priyanka chopra is my favorite actor. My friends used to call me ‘kanhaiya’ in college. Don’t ask me the reason.  I sometimes become nervous before meeting new persons. I don’t like writing. I cant speak confidently if I do not have the idea about the topic. I do not like people, having dual nature. I prefer to listen than to speak, most of the times. I love to listen to music when I have enough time. I have good grasping power. Sometimes I sketch too. I think I am suffering from multi personality syndrome. People say I have good motivating power.

My younger sister calls me ‘Doo’, that’s also not my nickname. I want to play squash and tennis someday. I have sim cards of almost all operators including BSNL, Airtel, Idea, Reliance CDMA, Reliance GSM and all of them working. I have an Apple Ipod, a Sony camera, a Sony handycam, a Dell laptop, and a Motorola phone. I like getting captured on camera. I don’t like formal wear. I don’t eat onion. I work best when I work alone. The first time I talked to girls was in twelfth standard. i have rode to atleast 15 kind of bikes. I love new Volkswagen Beetle. I love myself. That’s my true innerself, that’s me!!